I've received the offer of a part-time job taking care of an elderly woman at church. It's more supervision than actual care and I can bring Bear to their home three days a week for 6 hours.
Then why am I feeling so guilty? Is it because he's fighting a fever/ear infection, doesn't nap well at their home and I had to wake him up to leave yesterday, they have hardwood floors so he's not able to move around much, and I feel like I'm missing on out things with him?
I'm struggling balancing therapy and doctors appointments with this schedule, but I need to try to make it work before I throw the towel in. I feel awful that we'll miss out on the music programs we signed up for and that we don't to go on our daily walks (she has a history of falling so she cannot be left alone). I'm scared he's going to suffer for it.
I'm sure everyone else is out there reading this thinking that I'm overreacting and that a child won't suffer. But, it's different. To watch my son be delayed and trying to offer him the world to counter that, I feel like I'm making him miss out on something. I'm really struggling with all this, to the point I haven't really slept in 2 nights now. Hopefully as the week progress I'll feel more comfortable.
Would you do it? We don't NEED the money, of course it would help but we're making it okay. I did it more to help a family at church out and to get to know them better, but now part of me is regretting it.
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